so basically no one ever writes in these things but its all good... i guess ppl are just growing up and growing out of this whole weblog shit but thats life...ill prolly still write every now and then tho just so i can come and look back at all this shit later...work is goin pretty good i guess...well at least when jason or pat is managing... im taking a summer class...its half over...got an A in it...hopefully ill finish with an A so it will bring me gpa up a lil...im hoping to go to flagler after i graduate...thats the first long term goal ive set for myself in a really long time...i guess since ashley...she always made me plan ahead and look to the future..which was good but when we broke up i just didnt care about ne thing ne more...i hope shes happy now...im happy now...like truly happy...its been awhile since ive felt like this...even the other day i went into work and some of my friends were asking wut was wrong with me and y i was so happy...but i didnt rly have a reason i just was and still am truly happy...i think its cuz of lindsey...i guess we've been getting alot closer and what not...its nice to have someone there again...life at home...well i wouldnt rly know...cuz im not home much anymore...and even when i am home i just stay in my room...im just ready to move out and move to the next chapter of my life..cuz i feel like i have nothing more to gain from living at home..yet i have to endure another year of it..like i think it has alot to do with dual enrolling..and having a steady job and what not...i feel like im already in college and feel like i shouldnt be living at home anymore..i kinda wonder what i would be like had i stayed at bhs...i dont think i would have the trust that my parents have given me...i kinda take advantage of that sometimes...but i guess they know im gunna do what i want either way so they would just rather know...my mom is turning into her mom...which kinda sucks cuz she is keeping stuff from me and my sisters....like her health and shit but idk...and my dad...well hes just trying to deal with my mom and work and by the time he gets home from work hes tired...i guess i should prolly help out more then i do but ive been busy with school and work and just trying to hold onto the last bit of childhood...my sisters...both still live at home...i guess since im not rly home much ne more we dont fight as much...thats mostly only because if i do start to get pissed i just leave the house...i have a feeling this summer is gunna be one of the best so far...im looking foward to camp and europe..both are comming up soon...camp should be interesting...im not rly sure what to expect...since ive kinda drifted away from God and what not...but im not even sure i want to find my faith and what not...idk its all confusing...i can really see things starting to change comming into this last year of high school is a weird feeling that its almost over...but i guess every new begining comes from some other beginings end..and with that im out...